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妳怎麼了？ are you alright? |
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Q-be, 1997.6.29出生，19隻狗寶寶的巨蟹媽媽，
她一直很乖，很本分，除了很會兇她的老公皮蛋之外，沒什麼可挑。
這幾天，她無法一如以往的去廁所排尿，
整個家成了她的如廁空間，而且像拼布一般隨心所欲，
愛怎麼拼湊就怎麼拼湊....
有幾次，親眼目睹她從床上跳起來，急奔廁所，
無奈途中就不支，當著我們的面就地解決，
事後，她一臉懊悔難受的樣子，不似以往做錯事等著懲罰的表情，
彷彿她也知道有什麼不對勁。
我弟弟帶她去看了醫生，這三天是關鍵，
如果沒改善，她以後就會這樣終老。
有可能不是尿道炎，可能是腎方面的疾病，也有可能是身體內的腫瘤，
但她太老了，如果有什麼需要開刀的，醫生一點都不建議。
最希望她能好好終老，更希望她的終老期限不會這麼快來臨，
希望她快樂的活著。
我的Q-be.........
雖然我始終不是溺愛寵物的主人，始終當你們是家人、朋友，
但願妳知道我是愛妳的，多年前我已經為妳心碎的哭過，日正當中淚灑街頭，
如果妳還可以好好活下去，別讓我傷心，
妳只要記得我撫摸妳的樣子，我傳遞的真心，還有我的感謝，
這些年來有你們的相伴，讓我們失去父親的日子不再寂寞，重新找到生氣。
當然，希望是我多想了，妳一定還有更多年陪著我們，對不對？
如果妳的時間已經到了，我會把我全部的愛給妳，讓妳帶走，
並且希望妳心無掛礙，不用還給我....
嗯，光想到此，就夠難受了....
沒事發生最好，拜託了，冥冥中的強大力量.....
Q-be, born in June 29, 1997.
had nineteen puppies in her whole life.
she used to be a nice girl that she always pisses on our restroom....but it doesn't work lately....
our apt just like a huge restroom for her now,
she pisses every time, everywhere as she like.
we saw her jump out of her bed and rush to the restroom,
but she couldn't make it.
she looked sorry,
not like before....when she did something wrong, she's waiting for punishment.
my brother brought her to vet,
doctor said the further three days will be the key,
if she pass, everything will be fine, if not, she will just live like this forever.
I prefer her live in a happy way, no surfer.....
time to pray....
are you alright? my sweetest Q-be???
I wish you can stay alive for a very very very long time!
is that a deal? girl??
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我要雪 give me more snowing days |
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決定把之前未完成的日記寫完，不想半途而廢，
我自告奮勇的要成為原來的自己。
至於新的心情，視情況而定囉～
獨白的對話可以放著，也可以決定讓它們稍縱即逝，
反正自言自語自己決定，很輕鬆愉快～
一個人，一種聲音，一些心情，讓它簡單就好。
又可能要變冷了，可能的話，來場雪吧！
我寧可在沒有雪靴的狀態下狼狽的滑倒，
怎樣都要歡喜的迎接酷寒後伴隨而來的雪片，
記憶中，那是愉快的片刻，
至今仍回味、享受著，且迫不及待想再度重溫。
ok, I have to finish my new york diaries (since I have given them up for a lone time), can I?
Just let me enjoy talking to myself, that's all~~~
it will be cold again here, great!
snowy will be fine.
in my memory,
I was always enjoying cold weather with flakes and chilly and something else like that......
it was my pleasure moment (avec mon bon memoroire)
I CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE THAT MEMORY AGAIN IN THE NEAR FUTURE, with me only, no body will join me for sure :)
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老狗興奮著當我到家時my dogs was exciting when I got home |
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Q比和皮蛋聽到我深夜的開門聲，馬上迫不及待且破例的在夜深人靜的夜晚發出響亮的叫聲。
他們好幾天沒見到我了，肯定不知道我跑去哪裡，忙了什麼？
於是這兩隻至少超過13歲以上的狗類長老，
見到我的時候，難得學起幼犬搞活潑，
瘋狂撒嬌不說，還死命狂舔我的手，像是一種屬於他們的歡迎方式，
我摸著他們，看著皮蛋總是帶著微笑的嘴角、Q比陶醉半躺的悠閒，
衷心希望這兩個夥伴能繼續存在，如同此刻一般活生生。
一直在玩樂、玩耍、玩票，一直沒太刻意認真，
但這次太認真了，認真到自己都仰慕起自己的認真（哈）
不管過程風雨如何？總之我較正式的個展開幕終於順利落幕了，
地點是讓我這個外星人如今非常想降落的台中，
這是個讓人能量大幅增加，壓力瞬間消失的城市，
一個有綠地、有味道、有視覺的奇異天地。
這幾天彷彿活在大氣層，人是自在的輕飄著，
想到飛翔這件事已是多餘的念頭，因為我早就開始自在飛行。
開心～！
my two old dogs (over age 13+) Q-Be and Pee-Dan were happy when they heard the sound I made for closing door of my mom's apt, they couldn't wait to barked and welcomed me home.
they acted like puppies, licked my hands a lot,
I could read their mind, they just protested: 'where have you been these couple days?'
I pet them, Pee-Dan was keeping his smiling, Q-Be was just lying down, she was very relax and enjoy for my petting...
I really wish them can keep long lives and stay alive like now.
I was playing for a long time, never be serious for my painting 'career'.
This time, I'm pretty serious, maybe too much,
I can't stop admiring my serious attitude, it's real.
No matter how many troubles have been happened this time, it's over now!
Thank God my solo show's opening finally had a very happy ending!!
An alien like me wanna landing here now, location is middle of Taiwan: named 'Taichung'.
this place always increases my energy, disappears my pressure,
a magic wonderland with green, nice ambience and visual,
amazing city...
Just like floating on atmosphere, I was floating with the biggest happiness and joyful when I was there.
No need to think about how to fly, I'm already flying in the air.
so nice and enjoy~ |
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那夜的月亮 the moon of the other night |
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前天的月亮，是不偏不倚的一半。 50/50
如果人與人之間的關係就是那各自的一半，
一邊是全然的黑暗，一邊是純粹的皎潔，
這樣互不相干的存在感，卻源自於同一個物體，
似乎比白晝黑夜的對比，更令人覺得寂寞吧？
the moon of the other night was half look. fifty /fifty.
if the relationship between ppl is just like this;
one dark side v.s. the other bright side,
they both come from the same object,
it seems more lonelier than the opposite between day and night |
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詐徒的年夜飯 fraud's lunar new year's reunion dinner |
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由於最近深受詐騙之徒的侵擾，
即使已報警，至今仍是進行式，
不得不由感而發一下。
想請問，你們這些詐騙之徒也要返鄉過年吃年夜飯嗎？這是我的疑問。
你們曾經也是眾人祝福的襁褓嬰孩，也曾經那麼稚嫩潔白，
如今，你們在外用扭曲的方式折磨別人換取你們不法的利益，
能馳騁多久？沒人知道。
總之，你們還是有該成為返鄉遊子的那一刻，例如現在。
不知道你們的年夜飯坐在席間，是怎麼和家人聊起這一年在外 “奮鬥“ 的歷史？
你的家人知道你是怎麼生存的嗎？我不相信他們會是共犯，
請問你該如何祝福自己的來年？
祝 "一切順心"、"生意興隆"、"平安喜樂".......？？
是類似這樣嗎？
真不懂！像這樣的角色，是在何種動機下產生？
如何成群結社？大家如何一拍即合？
這樣的結合可以永續經營的嗎？
再問你們一句，這樣的"事業"，你們會願意讓所謂的下一代繼承嗎?
你們應該也吃過年夜飯了，朋友可能也跟你互通簡訊了，
你們可能還是理所當然的吃喝拉撒睡，
然後等開工日子一到，開始繼續日復一日的勾當，
以為可以心安理得沒人知道。
這整個劇本，越看越可笑。只有詐徒看不到！
最新劇情若馬上出現，就讓我們拭目以待吧。
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self dialogues - brabrabra exhibition |
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Start Time: Monday, March 1, 2010 at 2:00pm
End Time: Friday, April 30, 2010 at 9:00pm
Location: Chih Wei 至維
Street: No.42, Zhongcheng St.
City/Town: Taichung, Taiwan
it's Sophie Library's solo show in Taiwan again.
nice everything, include you.
Looking to seeing you here this time,
as you know, next time will be something else, perhaps,
we never know.
let's party somewhere around the universe NOW
due to my weird experience lately and it not finish yet, (I've went to police station already and they are keeping the record now) I have to mention you something right away......
some crazy people acts like fraud who hide in dark side and still try to do something stupid to waste my energy and hurt my reputation, this is just an art event, crazy people who try to do something bad to me will not be welcome. Also, I will definitely ask policeman around there to pay attention on it
首先聲明，最近遇到行徑詭異疑似詐騙的買家“集團“在未告知情況下匯款給我佯稱要買作品，交易取消後因為深怕遭他們連累成為詐騙集團成員或是洗錢白手套，打算約在警局退款，但對方並不出面，已報警處理，一切尚未落幕，且陸續還有其他可笑的劇情不斷上演，試圖精神折磨，必要時我再將來龍去脈貼在此。這幫人去年有幾個來過我的blog，還在我未宣傳的狀況下出現在我在今年國際書展的攤位上騷擾我，所以猜想不管我有沒有宣傳，他們或許會知道這個展。我必須強調，我一點都不歡迎這樣的人出現，同時我也會在展期先在當地轄區備案，遇有狀況即刻請員警出面處理，小人請別自討沒趣。 |
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let me go |
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對藝術，我有我的堅持，不管我走到什麼地步，
對風格，我有我的要求，不管眾人用什麼眼光，
我只是貪玩的在自己喜歡的領域裡漫步，用自己喜歡的方式前進，
如果你要 '給我一隻手'
請陪我走，不要推我！
每個人都有追求快樂的權利，我想要快樂，可以吧？
如同你們也可以尋找自己的快樂一般，我從來不會阻止。
誰都無須干涉誰，不是嗎？
I insist that I have to walk this way on my art field,
I insist that I have to work this way on my style,
that's my way, I have to do this for sure,
and I will believe in that forever till I die.
if you wanna give me a hand, do it! but please don't push me to the land I don't wanna be.
wanna be happy is one of the most important human right,
I won't never stop you, so, please don't stop me. |
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jellyfish, light angel under interior space |
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Jellyfish,
the way it moves is full of elegance,
the way Its life and death is full of mystery.
it looks just like x-ray effect, or smoke floating under the sea,
anyway, it give me a feeling,
it really enjoy its own activities and always take things easy,
like a light angel but stay quite and transparency.
I really love to have a lot of them at my apt soon...
真喜歡水母這種神祕的生物！
牠們構造簡單，一目了然，卻有這麼精細獨特的動作，
以及那麼多令人匪夷所思的故事，
牠們可以有性及無性繁殖，死後會化成水，溶於海水中，連遺體都不會存在。
前些日子和我弟弟在另類寵物街附近找個人創作延伸的樣品，
突發奇想的去逛了一下那條街，本想先看看我可能即將從獸醫朋友那領養的刺蝟，
結果卻意外的看到我從小就很 “仰慕“ 的海月水母，
當下看到的第一個反應彷彿回到國小不小心發現好看的卡通首播一般，
時光機以超高速飆回我童心未泯的那個歲月，那個動不動就覺得很幸福的年代。
我們駐足在海月水母單純的水缸前，
歎為觀止的看著這些透明的生物，
輕飄飄的在眼前如同凝聚又散開的煙一般改變姿態，
如同輕盈的內太空天使。
希望很快的，就能有牠們和我們的生活相伴
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彷彿親友間的口語 just like your family talk to you |
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從中，你感覺到什麼了嗎？
我帶著莞爾的心情，在路邊佇立著，
就是想拍下這張，途中遇到不明人士的張望或駐留，
但我沒有停止拍下完整畫面的這個動作，
畢竟，太經典了！ |
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鳥事非永恆 shit thing happens doesn't mean it will last forever |
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接連兩週，看了兩部很視覺的片子
帕納大師的魔幻冒險（the imaginarium of doctor parnassus）
以及阿凡達（avatar）
前者是帶著緬懷的心情去看Heath Ledger的遺作
畢竟他身故時的住所算是我當時打工所在地的鄰居
有一種很奇怪的心情
同時也賦予我看此片的奇異情懷
後者是我一直抗拒看的片子，忘了抗拒的初衷是什麼
可能是因為導演曾導過鐵達尼號，直覺感覺就是特效商業片
更害怕看到魔戒那種對我來說算是很做作的氣勢...
豈料，這兩部片子讓我找到自我的根源、原始的感受
一切都發生在我前往戲院後始料未及的後續
帕納大師劇中鏡子背後的場景
無端的和我長年以來出現過的夢境場景重疊
一種難以言喻的親切感
何等幸運的是，我感覺自己坐在舒適的戲院場景中
重新觀察自己的夢境，知道自己是多麼幸運能產生這樣的夢中畫面
阿凡達則更是影響劇烈，
如幻境般的場景、充滿個性造型的納美人，
帶著我如同駕著靈鳥飛翔一般，在意識的領域自在飛翔，
納美族成了我嚮往的領域，
這也呼應了自己老是覺得自己是地球人眼中的外星人那樣格格不入的感覺，哈！
我甚至忘了納美人是3D動畫，彷彿他們是真實存在的
such beautiful people, such a wonderland...
看完後，所有的鳥事瞬間都消失了
整個人彷彿洗乾淨一般，又可以再度重新開心渡過每一天
感覺超棒的 |
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